Honestly

I have so much I want to tell you… So many things I want to share. Music was always my outlet. It was where I could be myself, where I could tell the truth. Somehow somewhere along the way I lost it, the connection I had with my pen and paper. The strings that attach my soul to the sounds were severed and I felt like I couldn’t find my way back. After all, I wasn’t the same girl anymore. All of the pieces that made up my identity had changed; they’d shifted and reinvented themselves behind my back. Although I was delighted with their new form, I didn’t know how to put the pieces back together, how to be all of these things at once. What would this new version of me look like? What did she have to offer? What did she have to give? I knew what my role was at home… The minute you are blessed to form a human in your womb you are changed. You can never go back and you don’t want to. The minute you hold that beautiful creation in your arms you know exactly who you are, why you are here, and in that moment nothing else matters.

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Even though I have changed, my calling has not. How do I do this? How will I connect these two worlds in which my heart resides? Everything is compartmentalized for me… I wrap things up in their pretty little boxes and I like for them to stay where they belong… I don’t know how to do this.

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Music is my art, the kind of art that provokes the soul. The kind that beckons me to soldier on… I haven’t felt this alive in years. I’ve come to realize that I don’t have to choose. I leave nothing behind but the notion that I have to be the same. I am not the same. I am still growing… I am not the girl I used to be and to strive to be her is to chase a memory.  I am a wife. I am a mother. I am a writer. I am an artist. I am obsessed with interior design and shoes and I have way too many watches. I have passions to share and life to live and there is no reason to leave any of it out in the cold, waiting for it’s season that may never come. I am going to live out loud and I am going to share it all with you, honestly.

This is my blog… This is my heart… Here I will share my thoughts, hopes, dreams, DIY projects, style, stories, and anything else worth sharing! I hope you will find encouragement in the every day joys that make up this life we are all so blessed to live… I can’t wait to hear from you.

xo,

r.

3 Comments on Honestly

  1. Cynthia
    March 5, 2014 at 10:31 pm (3 years ago)

    this is all so good!!! Thank you Rachael for being an inspiration and an encouragement :)

    Reply
    • rachaelmessini
      March 7, 2014 at 8:42 pm (3 years ago)

      Thank you so much, Cynthia! Your support means so much to me and you have always been an inspiration to me as well! xoxo!

      Reply

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